i should hide deep inside i don't know why i'm alive why would i try noone else would like would anyone mind if i died these monstrous thoughts have lived in my head and heart afraid of getting caught and now i know it's been further taught i hand me down to those i love and to anyone else in the vicinity of me what i've become a monstrosity so afraid of life no way to relieve please don't set me free noone else can see my duplicity you wouldn't like me when i'm angry i don't know who i am i lose control and i become a different man can't let it happen again i consider you a friend and so i'll defend you from me then we'll see logic's circle complete self-defeating beliefs sometimes slowly creep into reality and into you and me takes over like sleep and i pray to keep this rage inside of me from being freed and finally seen completely without fear of myself or anyone else cause what if i felt don't like the cards i am dealt or she saw someone else could i control myself or would the monster appear it's becoming quite clear that for you to be safe i must walk away but i'll be ok see the light of another day don't worry or chase and i'll carry a load on my way watch what i say noone's to blame i can't complain raise the dead from the grave or be saved from the monster in me that i continue to feed so seldom seen look underneath or inbetween anyone you see or just at me as i finally speak erase all that which keeps me hidden and make my presence felt & heard please take a seat go ahead put up your feet anything you need i hope you feel free as for me sometimes turning green well this is the place where monsters have been seen & heard to scream my road is paved with good intentions i'm on my way to i don't no where mistakes were made that i won't mention wherever i go hell be right there i am moving all the time working hard doing fine there've been woman and even love almost all that i should dream of til i'm splitten into twain by the mocking of the lame all this faking and disdain and disease let grow in brains here's the refrain my road is paved with good intentions i'm on my way to i don't no where mistakes were made that i won't mention wherever i go hell be right there not trying to scare ya or anything just think you should be aware and i'm thinking hey maybe its' about time we got even green on our side all the colors in a rainbow unite i won't say fight but never divide and as an aside oh yeah i know i go way too far to prove points that few will see and i know i'm oh so guilty of enjoying myself way more than it seems way more than it seems way way more than it seems i'm talking a hole hell of a lot here i'm have a really good time here yo oh yeah i know i go way too far to prove points that few will see and i know i'm oh so guilty lock me up throw away the key if you can catch me cause has anyone seen a guy painted green and so i leave walk on to see where this road takes me